Thursday, April 30, 2009

When she is gone

Everyone I have talked to on the phone today...I have made cry. While I feel bad for bringing everyone into this horrible nightmare....it tells me how loved my mom is. She is the most caring, loving and generous person I know. Everyone adores her and I know that when her time is up...it will be a loss felt by many.

Who will I make Christmas cookies with?
Who will help me with all the cooking for my parties? Maybe I won't have parties anymore.
Who will I call when I need help with a recipe?
Who will I call when I meet Gerard Butler again?
Who will I call when I don't feel good?
Who will I call when I am scared?
Who will I call when I am sad or angry?
Who will I call when I need advice?
Who will I call when I am short on money and need $20 to fill the gas tank?

I think about these things constantly. I have no idea how to make a Thanksgiving turkey or the stuffing that I have eaten since a child. Everyone from my Grandma to my Aunts to my mom have made the stuffing in this paticular way. No other stuffing compares. I don't know how to make it.

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