Friday, May 1, 2009

Each day is worse than the last

The last two days have been the most difficult days of my life. I am really surprised that I am still standing. I don't wish this on my worst enemy. The Dr. called my dad this morning and told him that the cancer has spread and that if she wanted...she could continue with chemo but also suggested hospice. We decided to also call the Ireland Cancer Center which is supposed to be the best. It is through a different hospital system. We spoke with an oncology nurse there and she said we should put my mom into hospice and see if they can get her symptoms under control so that perhaps she might start feeling alittle better, then we could take her to be evaluated by a dr. at the Ireland Cancer Center (a 2nd opinion) to see if there are any other options. So...today...my dad, brother and I had to go to a bedside hospice meeting with my mom at the hospital. The nurses we spoke with were very kind and understanding. They said that based on my moms advanced disease that this is the best course of action. They had looked over her charts and history and her prognosis is six months or less. She will come home tomorrow under hospice care. We will see how she is in a few weeks and then if my mom wants to try more treatment...we will go for the 2nd opinion at the other cancer center. I asked my mom several times if she was ok with everything and she said yes.

Over the last few days I have learned the true meaning of friendship. I have such wonderful friends who have been so helpful. Even if its to bring me a sandwhich because I haven't eaten or to just sit and hang with me so I don't have to be alone. I truly don't know how I can ever repay them for the kindness and compassion they have shown me and my family. I love you all.

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